☾❤

salam..


owlie.. i sedih la.. ☾i sakit.. no wonder la dia senyap je.. i call x angkat.. i msg x balas.. tbe2 je hari ahad lepas, 30 Jan 2011.. i dpt msg dr dia.. bile bace.. bkn dia.. tp abg dia.. agak terkejut.. dia tnya bpe lame i knl ngan ☾.. kami da kenal 2 thun lebih.. bnyak krisis antara kami sbnrnya. n actually kami x de pape official relationship pon.. tp i da syg dia mcm BF i.. dia jgk.. juz kami x sedia nk declare atas sebab2 tertentu..


owlie.... rase2 dia bole sembuh x?? i x nk kehilangan dia.. i tnggu dia walaupon dia x kasi tnggu.. i sibuk kn diri utk lupakan dia.. tp i rase mengabaikan dia ibarat mengabaikan tanggungjawab i.. i rase dia penting untuk i. dialah yang bagi semangat untuk study.. dia lah yang selalu paksa i buat homework.. sbb i pemalas :(


owlie.. ☾ i tu kan.. degil orgnye.. suke x dgr ckp.. i kejut, dia susah nk bangun.. i rindu nk kejut dia.... dia selalu lewat g keja sebab terlajak... sekarang i da x payah kejut dia.. sbb both of us mcm buat hal masing2.. i pon x pasti kenapa.. eee sambil type menangis ni.. n dgr HATI YANG KAU SAKITI.. kekadang tu dia mg nyakitkan hati... tp syg i mmpu tepis rasa sakit hati tuh..


owlie.. dia kena makan ubat selalu untuk sembuh.. msti owlie x tau kn dia sakit ape?? bia la i je yg tau.. patut la i puas pujuk dia kerja elok2, dia ttp x mau... ade benda lain rupenya.. owlie.. nnt mintak kwn2 doakan dia sehat ea.. i nk pegi tengok dia, jauh.. abg dia x kasi. takot ape2 nnt.. katenya ☾ i malu nk jumpa org lain selain family.. kesian dia owlie.. sampai mcm tu sekali..


owlie nk tau x? tbe2 abg dia tnya i.. "Yanie org kg. ke org bandar?" then i jwb la.. "nape bang?".. then he replied... "x la.. kalo yanie org bandar.. segan la kalo Yanie nk dtg umah kami.. kami dok kg. je.. malu la kami.." then i was like.. "what?? kenapa mesti mcm tu bang?? Yanie org kg. jgk bang.. x de ape nk malu.. Amir tau sume psl Yanie.. every single thing Yanie da gtau dia.." he said then " x pe la Yanie.. jauh kn.. Yanie di Melaka.. belajar plak tu... jgn susah2 kn diri.. pape nnt abg inform Yanie.. tolong doakan dia ok.."


so, i mmpu berdoa je dr sini owlie.. syg mcm mane pon i pada dia.. my family still x tau psl dia.. n family dia pon x tau psl i.. kecuali abg dia.. so agak susah i nk ke sana.. tapi, sejak hari tu.. i da x bole fikir waras.. semua benda jd x betul pada i.. i jadi emo all the time.. i jadi x hirau kwn2 i... owlie... i x sanggup kehilangan dia.. please give me idea how to solve this situation??


entry ni sedih.. but my blog plays lagu happy.. All About Him.. yes.. it's about him.. but presented in the other way round.. HAPPY... coz i need to be happy for him to heal...


Sayang, i doakan u cepat2 sembuh okay.. pasni i janji x kan abaikan u... i promise.. u jgn tinggal2 mkn ubat syg... please.. i beg u.. u kena sehat.. nk keja.. nk tolong mak kn? u da janji ngan i kn?? so, buktikan okay... remember?? u're the best among your siblings.. so u kena tunjuk contoh kt adik2... i syg u sgt2.. so please consider me too... kalau i ade kesempatan, nnt i pegi jenguk u k syg.. i promise.. i know u x kan baca blog ni buat masa ni... sbb u sakit.. but i know, one day u akan baca... so, in case mase u bace entry ni.. i da x de.. i just want u to know that.... I LOVE YOU WITH ALL MY ❤.....


with love,










zayanie

demam, selsema n batuk.. apekah???

sick???

flu???

cough???

oh my GOD.. why does it happen to me?? it's final week.. come on.. heal me, wanna study for my next paper.. please!! there is a story to tell...

it's about yesterday... woke up.. go to mydin... bought some groceries... and quickly drove to JJ to meet my beloved ones... Peejot n Amal.. having lunch together.. went to visit my friend with her 2 babies... Nisa.. so cute of them.. Nisa, take a good care of yourself dear... then went back home.. mama said that she's going to Jakarta for some donation for the tsunami victims.. hope that mama will be good there... think that tonyte will be my busy nite.. open up the books.... read it! n practice it! i WILL!!!! dear.. u r seems to be far from me.. i think that u doesn't need me.. maybe.. take care..

regards~~

HURT!

dear blog...

it's a disaster day today... tomorrow i got my 1st final paper for this semester.. very unlikely subject... i hate coz this subject make me READ n MEMORIZE!!!!!!!! shit... what he hell are this.. got headache from day till nyte.. Ya ALLAH.. please help me... i'm hoping that You'll guide me tomorrow... when i'm this situation.. i'll find the one whom always be my ears... ready to hear anything from me n give an advice... but not tonight.. he keep on saying that i'm wrong... FUCK! DAMN! am i??? it's all about carry marks... he said that it doesn't gud enuff... it's all my effort... is it my fault??? he SCOLDED me! really can't think.. my heart stop beating.. my mind stop thinking.. my lips stop talking.. I HATE U!

my breath~~~

Sejuta nafas cinta

Bergelut rindu dendam

Membuat diri hilang arah dan pedoman

Sejuta nafas cinta

Mengintai hijab kasih

Membuat diri asyik dan kasmaran

Sunyi mengundang ilham indah kata-kata

Sepi mencipta madah hias duka lara

Kau penawar jiwa

Kau sinar segala-gala

Andai cinta GURAUAN untuk apa TANGISAN

Beralah malam siang bertakhta

Hariku masih gelita

Beredar hujan panas berlegar

Rindu masih tegar

Sejuta nafas cinta

Menyulam rintih pilu

Membuat diri racau dalam lamunan

nga ngadap buku nih.. still thinkin' bout him or lebih tepat lg.. bout' us... he's really busy... okay then.. never force him to be with me 24/7... juz missing him sooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo DAMN much!

selamat malam angkasaraya~

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ke awana untuk teman bintang bulan

kerananya lebih terang sinarnya

dengan kehadiran KAU & AKU

bagiku kaulah yang TERINDAH

manisnya senyuman anugerah TUHAN

memarakkan api dalam diriku

tak pernah aku sangka ada

rungsingnya buatku

asyik memikirkan DIRIMU

KAU umpama susun silang kata

yang terAKHIR untukku

sekian lama ku mencari

rupa-rupanya di depan ku

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untuk terus ku teguh berdiri

dan tak kira apapun yang terjadi dalam mimpiku

usahlah ia berakhir

TANPAKU MEMILIKMU!

Aizat~

Dear, i guess that i'm missing u so much sayang... know that u're quite distance away from me.. even that, u r still always in my heart... so to my soul... wishin' that could see u always.. having dinner together.. i'll cook for you... whatever you wish.. i'm willing to do... spending our ample time hangin' around... i know it's impossible.. but we can try to make it happen... keep your hardworking... gain your experience.. will always support you whatever it takes... be my soul...

with love....

regards~